Hi. My Unborn Love By I am 40 and do not want another child with my husband because he is not supportive at all. The heavy burden and guilt that I felt each day makes me question myself why I did came to that point, if I was careful enough to not make mistake. I had to. Thankyou all for sharing your stories + most of all the letter to the little light. The silly thing is I want another child. The way you wrote it felt so close to home for me and i just wanted to say thank-you, thank-you, thank-you. Im mad as hell (still) that we took steps responsible steps steps that have to be repeated! Financially we are already tight. I havent spoken to my parents yet. It all means the same thing. My partner abandoned me and I had no money. I know it was the right decision but I regret every moment of it even to this day. Im so scared though, because Im no longer with my boyfriend I wont get to meet that baby anymore, if it happens it will be with someone else, most likely. I dont want to live in regret of having an abortion. I know her from my dreams. And then I blurt out, without any grace, and much louder than I intend, Im pregnant. His eyes get wide as frisbees and he says, Wait. I dont know how I got to this point of being so mistreated and lost. i know its just rational thinking, but it still hurts a lot. All I can think about is that Ill no longer be able to turn to her when I feel like doing something that stupid teenagers do. A letter to my unborn child - you deserve an explanation I got pregnant from one night with a guy that I went on a few dates with. And Im scared because Ive read what an abortion can do or affect my fertility. Letter to My Child - Abortion Memorial I am experiencing so much guilt and pain going through this again, especially since I am 32 years old with no children and two months away from completing my masters. I know one day when everything is settled down and fine she/he will come again and Ill be more prepared. I pray one day my baby will cone back to me. I was rattled with anxiety and guilt and overwhelmed. Then told me I was over reacting for waking up in the middle of the night over and over crying. So please mommy, don't let me down. Share your story, thoughts, and prayers in words, pictures, or video. And then I blurt out, without any grace, and much louder than I intend, Im pregnant. His eyes get wide as frisbees and he says, Wait. I hope that helps you make the right decision for you. Im 8-9 weeks pregnant, i have not told him since we are not together although we still engage in sex. You will always be part of my heart, and I know that if someday I see two pink lines again, it will be you coming back to me. And understand that by forcing your boyfriend to do something he isnt ready for you may ruin your relationship with him. Sophie R. Pregnancy Poems I agree about age being just a number but my husband is 50 and not interested in doing this again. Chapter Headings: I can hear your voice I tell him I dont want an abortion, but nothing about this makes sense. All the what-ifs led me to deciding that the best decision for me would be to terminate. God is never bored of you. Love you lots!!! it really makes my decision i made 10 months ago seem like the right one. Letter: Actresses' reading of novel ignores rights of the unborn This is the worst pain Ive ever felt and the most heartbroken and devastated Ive ever been. I was accepted into a Masters program the day before. Im absolutely terrified of both scenarios and have been crocodile tearing constantly. I personally cant do abortion nor adoption. The 'pro-choice' movement argues that a woman should have a choice to keep . Im struggling with this decision. My husband is dead set against it and Im not sure what to do. Thank you so much for sharing this. Im working on it though. Your dad offers to drive me, but I want to listen to music on my headphones. I'll sing loudly in my first school concert I instantly regretted it I changed my mind the day of my surgery but the nurse said I may have a miscarriage because I took the pill the day before . This is just not exactly what I wanted for her and Im scared to lose my best friend in a sense because Im not quite ready to grow up that fast. All I ask of you is your love and a chance to love you back. I know this choice that I am making will be the hardest but I know in the long run, I will be saving my child from being born into a dysfunction environment I at least owe my child that. Hospitals must offer abortion if the mom's life is at risk Im so sorry. I just want to be happy with him but its hard when we are on different pages. Your dad looks at me and then the tests before putting them down, one in my lap and the other in his, but it falls in between us how symbolic. I am a teacher and take care of infants to two year olds, Im devastated because in a better situation I would have kept this child. I was clearly going to get my period. When parents choose to terminate a pregnancy because of severe medical conditions in the baby, the medical procedure is technically a second-trimester abortion or a "late-term" abortionand it is technically elective because parents can choose whether to let nature take its course or to end the pregnancy. Im 9 weeks, and he pretends like it does not exist. Sometimes I think about taking my life and then I think about my daughter . I had gone off my birth control a year prior and I didnt get my period for six months; then once I did, they were not predictable: they always came, but my cycle wasnt steady. He told me to decide between him and the baby and he would leave. This brings me to a previous pregnancy right before this in which I unfortunately miscarried. Fathers should never be bored of their children. I did it because I loved that little soul so much that I knew he deserved better. Am I selfish for bringing our baby into this world? I loved this poem so much, it made me cry. The copyright of all poems on this website belong to the individual authors. I have a lovely 5 year old sweets, a better partner that would totally support me should this happen again..nope. We are both unhappy . 4. But its her decision in the end. I have images that its the same as trying to kill one of my current children. I can identify , however the thought of another pregnancy scared me.. so I never wanted another child.. after this..This was 28 years later, I am in the same boat currently. Its something I think about every day. It ruins our relationship badly as we are both regretting the biggest mistake we made in our lives. He even started pulling out old toys and other items from when his own children were young. I feel for you and very sorry for your loss. Anti-abortion and abortion-rights activists argue their viewpoints on the steps of the State House in Trenton, N.J., April 30, 1973. God bless you. We left the hospital with him saying we can try again. I am sad you were sad. The emotions you displayed in this article made me cry because it is exactly how I feel. If you cant, then dont be guilty. I dont want to undo my choice, but its still so hard to live with sometimes. I was 5 weeks. I want the baby, and he says not yet. I had a late term surgical abortion, against my will. Maybe you think no one understands. I found out I was pregnant October 1st. The one person I need in my corner is not the there and I dont know if I can do this all over again at my age. Filed Under: Archive, Blog, Let's Talk Abortion, I had an abortion 10 years ago and I still regret my decision because I was living in the country with out a permit at the time I was considered an iligal imegrant and I was afraid what was gone happen to my baby . Thank you for your sorry. It uses medicine or surgery to remove the embryo or fetus and placenta from the uterus. So afraid. I felt empty after too, 10 years later and I still have regret. purchasing sperm from a donor, via a cryobank I pull out a second test with two pink lines, that I took while on the phone with my sister this time in the apartment, this time repeating different expletives. This time is different. Shes only known her boyfriend for 3 months and now they are contemplating a forever type of future together to raise this child. For the first time in my life. I made the wrong choice. It's me. I looked at them and I couldnt believe that that potential was now inside me. You definitely should keep it! If anyone has any advice, please send it my way. I had an abortion back in 1999. My heart would of gotten excited despite starting all over again. Are doctors in Texas afraid to say 'abortion?' : Shots - NPR Because we still didnt get married when our family asked us we use to say next year next year but now I dont think if its ever gone happen. Im not pregnant. I went into the first floor bathroom and peed on that little white-tipped stick. Im at a loss. I found out I was pregnant today and through the tears, I scheduled the appointment. As the embryo grows I am constantly conflicted. I want this baby, but I know financially we wouldnt be able to afford it. I know what I will do and why I feel it is the best choice I can make, but I will never forget this little tiny creature that has visited me and wanted so much to be my family, as I so wanted to be hers/his. I wanted to be your everything. God has a way of pulling us out of any situation and will guide us and provide strength. I dont want to go through an abortion again. I had been taking pregnancy tests every cycle for the past six months just to have peace of mind. So not really any adult guidance, or access to the financial resources parents often avail their young-adult children. Then I panicked more I hadnt even thought about how I had a choice to make, and how this didnt only involve me, it involved your dad, too. He started to be excited about the idea of starting a family with me and even though we were both stressed and both cried a lot.. we finally started having discussions about moving in together, getting better jobs finding a healthcare provider and all types of different things to prepare for our baby. I read this the night before my appointment for my abortion. Sometimes I wish I still had my baby. Youre feelings and emotions emulate mine. To be honest, the abortion probably saved my life. I am sad because I already have a connection with the child in my belly and I cry everyday thinking about the fact that I wont be able to hold him or her or see their face. Im 27 years old and he is 32 years old. I wish I could have kept him/her. This moved me. Walgreens confirmed on March 2 that it will not distribute abortion pills in numerous statesincluding to some states where abortion is legalafter Republican attorneys general (AG) in 21 states told the company that it risked breaking federal law should it do so, Politico first reported.. Walgreens, the second-largest pharmacy chain in the United States, made the decision after receiving . Im playing the song you listened to sobbing. Abortion Poems - Modern Award-winning Abortion Poetry : All Poetry I am in the middle of mine as I type this. I already have a little one year old and the thoughts of having to go through it all again, deal with the depression and anxiety that I still havent healed from. The procedure is done by a licensed healthcare professional. Thank you for sharing your story. I immediately was overcome with fear! The baby daddy is crying too because we have a lot to achieve in life and this isnt what we expected. You may wonder why I say she.. I wish I had made the even more difficult decision and been able to hold him and tell him how much I love him. I am turning 23 in two days, on July 24th funny enough. I am 6 weeks and already feeling flutters and I feel like I will never get past be this. I hope that there wasnt a little soul in there yet . I was 14 weeks with two boys already. I wish I could advise a podcast or supportive tv bit for her to watch. Im sad, but dont regret it. Ive been her best friend for 6 years and I never saw this coming. I am sure I am going to be the Thank you so much for this. Wish I had a way to contact you personally. Children cannot eat love and so please think about your financial situation. but no one wants that for me. nothing was ever the same between us. I understand you completely I found out I was pregnant pretty early ( 2-3 weeks ) decided I was going to go through with the pregnancy after me & my boyfriend relationship changes drastically he started to become emotionally and mentally abuse. My boy ( yes, For some crazy reason at that time, I wanted to find out the sex of the baby through the blood test they do to check chromosomes and it was a boy) would be 7 years old. We talk about how we could make it work, but it just doesnt make sense. This poem represents the voice of an unborn child pleading for its life. I begged mi amor to reconsider, I proposed to her 3 days before she had the abortion. I wish I had advice or something magical to say to make everything all betterI dont. Its a hard feeling to know that there was energy of ours creating a life for 8 weeks. I had one almost six years ago and I still cry about it. I texted two of my closest friends. The situation was messy and It all feels like a blur now. My daughter will be three next month and I just found out that Im pregnant. Im 9 weeks pregnant. I feel alone, abandoned & ashamed that I have to make this decision. I cant be a single baby mama, with two baby daddies. Guess what? There arent any protesters out that day and Im grateful. I recently just had my second abortion in 9 months . I wanted an abortion but my boyfriend wanted us to keep the baby. Thank you so much for writing posting this just hope and pray that one day I will get a chance to be a mom again. Constant regret and pain . Those options may be easier, less expensive, and more in reach than you think. I thought about how I had just lost my job, just went back to school, was still struggling with grief from a lost loved one and trying to take care of my mom while still trying to learn how to take care of myself. Then after that we took a break and he broke up with me on the day I got abortion and said that hes moved to a different state and didnt think he wanted to come back home. But like you said, when i see those two pink lines again, i know it will be my baby coming back to me. I said this is the hormones speaking and she did the right thing. I fear that if i leave him he will tell my friends and family. I was very helpless. We, unlike many stories, are able to provide and give the child a good life. We sleep in the same room that night, and the next day he drives me to work. I really care about him, but this all has put a serious strain on our relationship. I literally cry every moment I think of aborting it. Published by Family Friend Poems March 2017 with permission of the author. He ignores me when Im upset and just goes to bed with that knowledge. Collection of 38 Abortion Poems That Get You Feel Sad & Guilty - OZoFe.Com I cant quit my job, but I cant afford 2 in daycare either. There was no internet to look up information, and she didn't know about pregnancy . Your dad offers to drive me, but I want to listen to music on my headphones. I lost my baby in August. I wasnt ready to quit my job. I am nearly 25 now and had an abortion at 17. Im at the point where leaving him is the only option because each day he tells me to get an abortion in person, texts, etc. He now know about it and wants to end our marriage of 4 years. I'm speaking. My boyfriend told me to abort mine and I dumped him and made that decision on my own. This woman's open letter to her abortion will move you I go to sleep the same way I have every night since I found out about you: heartbroken and tearful. Out loud, we weigh the facts: I have my schooling, Id lose my position of junior teacher if I dont do the teacher training program, thus losing the ability to become a head teacher one day. Thats when I called him and told him he needed to come home, that I wasnt mad at him anymore for all the horrible things he had recently done, and that we needed to talk. A letter from an unborn baby | Count Clement II's Panorama I was in a a similar position. I told myself there was no way i could be pregnant. I wish I wouldve bought her plan b or made sure she was taking her birth control but those options are completely out of reach now. She wo t talk to anyone as she feels she would be seen as weak. I found out I was pregnant exactly two years ago this weekend. A judge can excuse you from this requirement. I took the morning after pill and it failed. And I too pray from the core of my heart that you all get back your unborn ones. She is 23, theyve been together 6 months and shes not ready for such a huge commitment. I will terminate in 3 days. Took the first pill today to block the hormones. I decide abortion at week 6. You can also sign up as Sugar . Except I really dont want kids so shell never get the chance to come back to me. Can I ask what you ended up doing? One abortion opponent testified that people in her life had . Letter To Mommy From The Womb, Cry Of An Unborn Child, Abortion Poem It took almost 6 months and I delivered my poor child.. Each day, I will continually honor you and thank you for making the sacrifice so I could become a head teacher and get my Masters degree; so your dad could take the steps he needed to stop drinking. I didn't know you, but I loved you. I cant imagine what I would have done if I wasnt able to have an abortion. STOP! A Letter to the Girl Who's Considering an Abortion. - For Every Mom I might have forgotten what I learned and failed my license exam in the future since Id have to take a leave. So many of the feelings you described in your post match mine, and as I read, I finally felt something other than alone. Thank you again. I was very confused. I felt a sense of love and attachment to the baby I knew I had to let go. I am 31 and had an abortion in November last year at 10 weeks pregnant, which was later than I thought too. An abortion at age 15 left Teresa with 'a wounded and tormented soul' I have been battling with the decision for some time now, had an appointment yesterday and didnt go because the voices of those who tell me I need to have the courage to keep the baby keep ringing in my head and those that guilt trip me on the decision of abortion and how wrong it is. I havent gone one day without thinking of it and causing major heartache, especially as family members and friend have now kids. I have no one I can really talk to about my situation. The connection is like no other. And chips. She told me he has a live in girlfriend for 6 years and the girl has a 10 year old son that is not his but he helped raise. I am now 48 and very much regret it and really dont know how to go on, but somehow we must. Its so unfair that guys help in making the baby. I feel like Im losing either way; if I get an abortion, Ill most likely regret it, and if I dont, Ill struggle as a single mother. He reminds me every day and he is resentful towards me like Im some kind of murderer. Every now and then I am haunted. And soon I'll get my own fingers and toes. I still wonder if o made the right decision. You can do more than you think you can. I would never say that Im over it and my biggest regret is not being careful enough to avoid getting pregnant in the first place. but something I think people needed to read. The place we live doesnt have space for a baby and we are only just building our savings. Ive never allowed a man to make me feel like this. I didnt want anyone in the world to have my baby, I didnt want the guy that knocked me up to have my baby and I also felt a little pushed by his mother to have the abortion so instead of keeping him or her for myself I killed my baby. Just my thoughts ?? Im afraid that in a few years I wont be able to based on my cervical health. Yes, Im still pregnant. Rapid thoughts flooded my brain. My supports at the time were my boyfriend, a few very close friends my age, and my 4 younger siblings (3 were under 6 years old at this time). And then we came back home. She tells me, You dont have to do this. Ive always wanted to be a mom, and already, I feel like I know you and yet I cant have you. We wouldnt. Making an impassioned plea to her mother to not abort her, she shares her hopes and fears with the woman who can control whether she lives or dies. All of this is to saymom, you have a child, it's me. Get the Poem of the Day delivered right to your phone! There are no other words. and I have no clue what to do. The abortionist, he explains, after draining the uterus of the amniotic fluid that was protecting the child, inserts a claw-like instrument into the womb. My periods had always been very irregular and I had taken over the counter tests when it got late but I got negatives the both times so I was certain I wasnt pregnant. My husband does not want another child. What if I still had no money, no stable place to live? I just dont know what to do!!! Please please please pray for us so that my darling would come back to me. My biggest fear is not be Abel to give my girl a sibling I will be 39 in a couple of days so . In my heart i know that baby would have deserved better, but is it ok to feel THat way? I am sitting with this sweet being I cannot support, and feeling so sad. This is not a fictional story. I feel manipulated and trapped. And I cry every single day. to NOT have to make this decision. She had a support network that would have helped and supported her but being very self sufficient wodnt allow her to acknowledge at the time. The following article is one I submitted back in March 2017. However, I was quite blue that I was no longer pregnant and I actually experienced a bit of anger as the situation brought up unpleasant feelings from the past. It haunts me every day . I feel I will never stop crying and never stop being broken hearted at my loss. It is a deep sorrow. I had an abortion 6 years ago at 41 years old and was the one and only time to have a child I always wanted. It was at this point that I started to get really nervous, terrified actually. And, I dont know If I ever would have met my husband of now and not really sure of he would stick around with me having a kid from somebody else but regrets are one of the worst thing that you go though when you make a decision like this. The World Health Organization (WHO) estimates that 42 million abortions are induced worldwide each year. A Mother's Letter to Her Aborted Baby - ClinicQuotes Its nice to see other ladies have the same emotions and I know when the time is right my baby girl will come back to me (: This might be a bit forward and seem strange of me but I have been through this twice before so if you would like someone to talk to or any support you are welcome to contact me anytime x. I just had mine this afternoon. Jocelyn, I cant thank you enough for sharing your story. I didnt want him to be there for me or my baby out of obligation, I wanted him to be happy. 'I had to carry my baby to bury my baby': Woman says she was denied My boyfriend was with me when I took the test. I even Bought girl stuff.. in the end I told myself he was right. He met my dad. I got married in December, I just found out that I am pregnant last week, Im running my masters degree and my husband isnt financially stable, feeling really sad and confused about what to do next. Dont panic, I thought. Maybe you feel deep regret, maybe it was a confusing time, maybe you didn't care at all. Colorado. Not how I thought I would live my life. I want to keep the baby but then i feel like maybe i should get an abortion and give myself this chance to truly start over and fresh and cut ties with him other than coparenting. But deep down I know I might regret it if I abort it. Please look into and join the face book group I Regret My Abortion there is a logo of a rainbow. I promise that the next time I see that little blue plus, the next time you are in the same reality as me, I will be ready for you. A group of doctors and conservative medical groups is suing to overturn the FDA's approval of mifepristone and a federal judge could rule to cut off . I sit there like that until I hear the front door open and your dad walks in. So heartbroken. I have a toddler and Im pregnant again. She gave her baby girl up for adoption, and now that baby is an adult. He said he would be there no matter what, but I still didnt want to force a family on him if thats not what he wanted. It will be 8 years since my abortion in July and I still think about it every day. Much love:). I walked back to the preschool where I work with ten minutes to spare and decided, Ill just do it now. I work a half day, then your dad picks me up and we drive to Planned Parenthood. She told me she was flattered but nothing could stop her from the abortion. A postabortion woman wrote the following letter to her aborted baby, who she named Grace: "Everyone close to me was affected by that awful day - none more so than you and I though. I didnt touch you, but I felt you. I regret my decision every day. 1 A letter to a woman considering abortion Dear Friend, I was thinking of you today. My husband said he would support me whatever decision I make. Because I was born, because I can talk and breathe air and because you can visibly see me in front of your face, I had the "right" to take my first baby's life away. Seven months latter she wrote this letter to a priest. Oh, Honey. Reading this story and the comments gave me some of the comfort I needed. After I check in, I have to take another urine test. My advice to you would be do it if YOU want to, dont let nobody not your parents or partner tell you what to do, take some time and think about it because it is a situation that stays with you forever. I have seen God cry when rocking little babies in His big loving arms. More than I want good . My first pregnancy ended the relationship because I betrayed him, although he would never step down from his responsibilities , and thats how he made me feel. Im so confused. My daughter knows that Im pregnant and its a very stressful and uncomfortable situation. I now have learnt something new about myself i will absolutely love to be a mother one day. To My Mother From An Aborted Baby - theodysseyonline.com Would adoption be something you could manage? Unborn Child's letter to a Mother! - Momspresso Couldnt take my meds or prenatals because the baby threw up everything. Ill be 43 when the child would be born. I just hope that I can. I just broke up with my boyfriend 4 days ago after finding out that he has been cheating on me.Deep down I knew that I was pregnant after 20 days late of my periods and my breasts becoming tender.Today I Decided to take the test and found out that Im Pregnant.I lost my mother a year ago and do not have anyone who will support me and the baby financially.It hurts that Weve always had conversations about having a baby one daday,now that it is happening and Im all alone,I feel like a stupid.termination is the only option but I dont even know What to expect. I felt you crying when you went to the doctor. It always feels unfair that the times I get pregnant, I had to terminate the pregnancy. It's just cruel." I really can not explain how happy I am to know that you'll be my mom, another thing I also proud is to see the love with which I was conceived It seems that I will be the happiest kid! There was also this paranoia about who the dad was. This was with the same toxic individual that I got pregnant the first time with . In a letter published at The Public Discourse, leaders of the American College of Pediatricians, American Association of Pro-Life Obstetricians and Gynecologists and other medical groups explained their support of the Born Alive Abortion Survivors Protection Act.